30 June 2004
Worry
Guess yesterday slept till too late so now couldn't manage to catch some sleep. Now is already 6.14am and it's raining heavily outside. Wondering what time 'll I be feeling tired. Well, really hopes that I can survive until noon. I'll take it that I'm having a nap. Sigh, better get back to the normal life (Woke up in the morning and sleeps at night) or else when school resume, gonna suffer man!
Hmm, just now actually wanna surf for something else but end up downloading msn plus 3 and msn emoticons. Sigh, guess I'm too bored, nothing better to do than this.
Sigh, had been worrying for a lot of stuffs. Eg. Cello exam; wondering when is our exam date, wondering 'll I be able to pass etc. Have a lot of thoughts in mind, gonna share some below:
Sonatina - Mu He's gonna do well in it. He plays out all the intonation and his vibrato skills are much more better than anyone else. But accuracy, guess me gonna wins him? But overall, I think that piece of song he gonna score the highest. So Jo's and I gonna suffer a little bit.
Chanston Triste - Didn't really listen to him when he plays this song. So, can't really compared over here.
The third piece - Gonna see. Guess Mu He 'll choose the Meditation ba. It seems much more difficult than Robot's March which I'm gonna choose but guess both sound equally nice? Jo's wise, she says she gonna choose Meditation. Well, gonna left me alone le. Hehe...
Scales and arpegios - MH: If he gets nervous he might forget some or play wrongly. So pray that he won't feels nervous at that moment lor. Jia You arr...
JO: Guess she can do well in it if she practice harder for this few weeks. For sure she can memories all of them cuz she have a super brain. And she'll not feels nervous at all cuz I guess she has no feeling? Wahaha... kidding la. But the 3 of us are to compare together, guess MH 'll be feeling the most nervous person follow by me ba. Jo gets nervous too but not as much as us?
ME: Must relax! Ar bo accuracy gonna pulls my marks down. Cuz my hands 'll be damn shaky when playing higher positions, esp thumb position. Ya, relax... sure can score well if I feels relaxing.
Sight reading - Equally good ba... well, all depends on which piece does the judge gives.
Aural Test - Equally weak. But guess by luck, everyone of us can do well? Wahaha... day dreaming. Guess gonna borrow from Xiao Qian the theory book that she lends it to me last year. Ar bo for sure don't know how to ans the examiner qns. Sianz...
The next thing that I'm worried is that how many people 'll come to the concert to us (cello gp) this year? 60+? Impossible. Haix... sianz... gonna slp le. *Yawn*
Update when I come online
Update
Hmm, woke up at noon and practiced for 2 hrs. Wahaha, focus more on exam pieces. So a lot of exercises he gave didn't practice much. Just hopes that he can understand lor.
Hmm, after which went to take a nap. Until now than woke up. Hmm, head's feeling damn dizzy. Sigh, wanting to take pandon but it was too hurt le so... but after resting for a while feel much more better le. *Glad*
Happy that Jasmine still dropping by my blog. Haha... hmm, hopes that I can pass lor. Ar bo me gonna give up cello le. Haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
06:15
29 June 2004
Work harder man!
Sleeps until mom came back home from work, 2pm. Sigh, so didn't practice cello today perhaps no mood to practice in the afternoon ba. Haha.
Hmm, feeling much better today. Glad that my sis was there for me yesterday evening. Well, ppl reading my blog might says that I loves to compare results with friends and that's what I deserve for comparing it. But the fact's that, if you don't compare your's with others, you'll never realise how badly you actually had done. Comparing of results is only a kind of guideline for each an everyone of us. Well, perhaps I'm having too much confident at first so now, couldn't manage to take the blow. Sigh, really hopes that I can do well for the next semester.
Why is GPA so important to me?
Only people with at least 3.2 and higher can proceed to higher NITEC which's where I wish to go after finishing this year courses. Then there 'll be a 2 years courses in higher NITEC and if you happens to do well, the chances of going to Poly is much more easier. That's why, GPA is damn important to me.
Haix, 5 more days, school gonna resume le. Sianz... -.-
Update
Sigh, now than I realise that I forgotten to add the comment box from my pervious template to here. Hmm, later gonna move over here the comment box.
Wahaha, today evening just got the third pieces of exam score from Jo's. Hmm, not as tough as mine. I prefer Meditation to Robot's March. Perhaps, I likes to play song's which is a quicker tempo. Well, gonna practice it tomorrow morning. Now going to do my theory book le. =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:13
28 June 2004
Sad, feel like crying
Today woke up at noon and practiced cello for 1hr and 30mins.
Nothing special today. Just that feeling a little sad after having a chat with Kelly on msn.
Chatting about wad? Results. She asked me how was my results and I told her okay but didn't reach my expectations. After which, asking me for individual grade for all subjects. Then I told her. Sigh she won me this time round. Sometimes, I realise that it's no point of winning her when doing common test etc cuz for sure gonna had a draw grade with her for mid-year year etc. Sometimes, she can wins me too. Sianz... Well, not jealous of her but just hating myself for not studying hard. No point of feeling envious of her. *I'm extremely down... really feel like crying*.
Haix, feeling happy for her also cuz she my close schoolmate's. Sigh, feeling so useless all of a sudden. *Crying* Sianz... I HATES STUDY!
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:31
27 June 2004
Entry about CO
Today woke up pretty early cuz have CP at 1030. So went to the bathroom and had a shower. After coming out from the bathroom, my dad went out already. Sigh, couldn't manage to get my allowance today. So went to his drawer to take $2.50... after which, took a cab down there.
During combine, Mr Lee seems to be happy with the whole CO performance. *Happy*. A lot of them came today too compared to the past few times of practices. Guess about another half more? A new comer came today. A boy whom's damn cute in the way he talks. If I'm not wrong, his name's called Yi Zhan. He plays ZHONG YING SHENG quite well wor. But seems to be absent-minded most of the time? Sigh...
Forgotten that there's meeting today at 2pm. Sigh, was being reminded by Si Yao. Didn't really plans to go cuz for sure gonna be bored. But end-up I went to the meeting with them. So wasted a lot of time during the meeting.
During the meeting, three items I noted that it concerns about me, therefore I listen to the topic attentively.
No 1, they mention that no ones bring ups anyone to the CO. A thought came across my mind immediately. That's asking both Percie and Li Juan to join the Sunday practice. But maybe not now, cuz for sure they'll be having the NDP practises. Perhaps, later time.
No 2, they'll be a cello QI ZOU for this year concert. LAO DA says that we'll be performing concerto no. 5. Sigh, I hates it man! Mainly because my tempo is not stable enough, esp the third movement. Well, hopes that we can have much more variety of choices. Hmm, have a thought of asking Ryan and Elgin to join in too. Haha, but pai sey to call them la. So Elgin if you read this entry, you decide whether you wanna join in or not? After which, helps me to inform Ryan about it. The concert is held on the day of X'mas evening at SCH. Hmm, if Percie and Li Juan are joining the Sunday Practice, perhaps, I'll be asking them to join in the cello QI ZOU too. Well, can't deny that it's a little too rush and tough for them. But if they're willing to learn, there's no impossibility. So...
No 3, I'm in-charge of the concert ticket man! Anyone helping me out? First time doing ley. :D Well, guess I needs to prepare the quotation and also puts all the informations in Excel form. (Maybe is the sales of ticket this yr and last year? Any increase in it?) Haha, luckily I studied all these before. If not, guess gonna be a little tough for me. *Glad*
Hmm, a little sad la, cuz cannot spent my X'mas with friends but them. Well, perhaps, I'm gonna have fun on that day.
Hey, Percie! Marked you theory le. Happy with your performance too and guess yours's the neatest <-- (Have such a word? I doubt so. But just couldn't think of an appropraite one) among all of them. Keep it up wor. But there's one chapter that you girls are doing damn badly, so gotta do correction once I gave back to you ppl on Wed during your combine. Okay? =)
Sigh, it had been days since I last practice cello. Perhaps, gonna spend the last week of my holiday in it. Practice more or else when lesson resume, I might not be having enough time to practice already. So...
Updates
Sigh, just went to read my friends blog. Wish to give them comments but just that their comments box seems to be out of order? Wish I can gives comments over here but guess for Percie it wouldn't be convenient ba. So gives you my comments for your blog when you log in to msn. Take care...
Hmm, Jasmine won't be blogging any more until she learns how to design her own template. Most probably, 'll be waiting until her "O"s is over ba. Well, not going to remove her link cuz her blog looks great man! Hey, good luck to you and everyone taking "O"s and "N"s this year. (Special wishing to Hui Min, Si Yao, Mu He, Elgin, Ryan and Chong Hwee.
Haha, Hui Min, really hopes that you can do well in your Os and I believe you can. And don't forgets you owns me one testimonial. Just kidding. Jiayou...!
Si Yao, must have more confident in yourself. Focus more in your studies and lesser on him. Okay? Jia you... !
Mu He, jie really hopes that you can do well la. Same for you lor, focus more in your studies than her. Okay? Hmm, also hopes that you can pass your cello gd 5 exam this year too. Any problem feels free to approach me. Jie promise you that I'll be there for you if you needs me. Okay? Cheer up! Jie cheering you on, Jiayou le!
Elgin, jie have confident in you that you can do well for it cuz you had always been so sensible. So work harder and jie gonna be proud of you. Haha... Jiayou!
Ryan, haha, friend la. A... good luck to you and hopes that you can do well in it. And I have confident in you that you gonna pass your cello exam this year. You taking right? So jiayou...
Chong Hwee, you're improving a lot heards from some of your friends. Hmm, cello wise also improved a lot and you mastered another instrument. Well, that's your talent man! Hopes you can do well in you "O"s so jiayou. Well, take your gd 5 cello exam next year with me if I happens to fail this year. Wahaha... siao liao... hehe...
Hey, whoeva friends of mine, good luck to you ppl taking EYE... take care la... (c",) ~~
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:15
26 June 2004
Nothing to do
Sigh, yesterday didn't manage to help Elgin's as my phone as no more credit. Sianz, perhaps the next time I'll sign up for plan if I wanna buy a new hp ba. Yesterday sleeps pretty late, 4am+ and woke up at 12pm today. Nothing to do in the morning so wants to surf net but brother was playing PC game. So went to do my music theory book. Do almost half of it at one shot than Ying Fang sms me says she's bored and wants to have a chat with me. So come online to search for her but she wasn't online ley. Sigh... perhaps wait a little longer. Guess she's gonna tell me about the relation between she and he...
Hmm, that's all for now, update again later.
Update
Sigh, she wasn't online until now. Sianz, if I knows it, I'll not come online le. Coming online causes so much problem. Sianz. Just now cannot go to internet explorer but now can le after much times of restarting the com. Sianz... that's also the reason of getting a laptop! Sianz...
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:49
25 June 2004
No comments?
Today, I overslept. Sigh, none of my juniors phoned me even though I still haven't reach at 1145pm, not even a sms. Until when I was about to go out, Jo's phoned me and I gave her a lecture.
I open the door and it was raining heavily didn't plan of taking an umbrelaa but wondering how should I gets to the bus stop without it? Therefore went in to get an umbrella and took a cab down there.
The driver was pretty friendly and have a chat with him. And I guess he brighten ups my day.
I reached there, I was so mad at them and gave them a scolding. Sigh, no comments for em this time round...
Have the whole afternoon with them and their performance wise, weren't quite good except for Percie, Li Juan and Jasmine. Eunice and Pei Shan are doing well. Michelle a little loss today as she wasn't feeling quite well. I wish I can call them back again on Sunday but they have the NDP practice until quite late. So, think I can forget it le. Hopefully next Wednesday I'll be going to CP to see their performance le. Haix...
Have a test together with Jo. We tested each an other scales, arpegios, charomatic scales, dominant seventh, diminish seventh and lastly the sight reading. Have quite a lot of fun that time. Hmm, so gonna comments for her...
Scales - When playing seperate bowings, bow is to be divided equally. Used a much longer time to think before played. And all needs much more accuracy.
Arpegios - Doing well
Charomatic scales - Wasn't tested as you do not know the name of it.
Dominant seventh and diminish seventh - Weren't tested as you not know the name of it.
Overall for scales and arpegios - ? (Think how many marks 'll I give you?)
Sight reading - Intonation needs to be practiced. A more postive bowings are essential. Take notes of term used (Allergo, Moderato etc)... Okay? (17/21) Hehe...
Haha, actually you can do well la. But gotta learns all terms la. Okay? You own me comments for it arr... test you again next time I see you.
Remember to arrange the things that I told you to do so. Okay?
Update
Hmm just finish marking junior's theory books. Jo's helped me to mark those in files one, Percie, Michelle and Pei Shan. Whereas I marked Li Juan, Jasmine and Eunice. Haix, quite disappointed with Eunice lor, cuz leave a lot of blanks. Than Li Juan wise, didn't do quite well. Hopefully next time she can do better ba. Damn happy with Jasmine performance... haha... keep it up. =)
Sianz... still haven't manage to find a cursor for my page... gonna find one now... hehe... (c",)
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:13
24 June 2004
I would like to start the journal with some weird things that happened yesterday afternoon and today morning (2am+)
Yesterday I was practicing cello inside my uncle room. I remember that I had close the door tight enough that even though a strong wind blows, it still couldnt' open. But it just happens to be the opposite of my thinking. Sigh, not the first time already.
Still can remember that time, the room was lived by my second brother. He shifted his fish tank into the room and that day, Vedelene grandmother came to our house and just happens that she likes fish too, therefore, went into the room and take a look. That time, I was teaching Vedelene cello and her grandma saw it too. In addition, her grandma told her to learn properly.
But after 3 days, her grandma passed away in the hospital. Sigh, therefore we have to treasure each an every person beside us now as we do not know what 'll happen next. Each an every time the door open itself, I'll have a strong sense that it was Vedelene's grandma. Sigh, was I thinking to much?
In the morning of today (2am), I heard my mom's room door banged. At first, I thought is my dad woke up therefore I quickly pretend to sleep but after pretending for a min plus, I didn't heard any sound or footsteps sound (my dad walks damn loudly... so...). I was so afraid at that time, so I forced myself to sleep.
Last time, my brother was encounting the same problem as me. But think he's much worse than me. That nite, mid-night, he was washing the plate that he had just ate. But after half-way, the water stopped all of a sudden. After which, he heards someone walking, footsteps sound. He was feeling nothing that time, but thing was getting more worse when he was about to sleep. He heard my parents room bangs too and he make an effort to take a look but realise that my parents are sleeping. Not sure what happened, my sis brings him to WEN SHEN... and say that his luck wasn't good... means he heard those things lor... sigh... so scare la... haix...
Today woke up pretty early in the morning nothing to do so do some surfing of new template. Guess what?!! I was being captivated by this template. And I realise that some templates that I likes very much, 4 of em are being designed by Yiling. I was like, feeling envious of her lor. Haha... have so much talent in designing template.
So from about 10am starts editing my template until about 1pm when my mom came back from work. I went to have a shower and after which we took a cab down to visit my brother.
It had been 8 months that I had not seen him. He looks much more good-looking inside there and of cuz happy when he saw me. Haha... me also happy la... at first, I was like feeling like crying la... but I controlled. So... have a chat with him la.
He was asking me to take good care of mom. And he told me that he didn't pass the exam... gotta down grade nt month... haha... funny to me... haha...
After visiting, went to causeway pt to have a shop... and have my dinner too. Asked mom to try the YAO CAI JI... cuz Pat told me before that it's pretty nice... and the carrot too... haha... I tried the carrot cake but not the YAO CAI JI... as I don't really like this kind of stuff.
Sigh, actually today I was wanting to go and see the concert together with Jo and juniors. But sigh, wasn't free. Perhaps, nt yr ba... whereby my juniors are in the stage...
Tml 'll be having self-practice with juniors. But not sure they going or not. Haix... cuz I forgotten what time I told Jasmine le. But perhaps, tml ask Jo to sms her and ask her ba. Cuz my card no money le. Haix... sianz... below is the plans for the practice...
1100 - Collects of theory bk
- Tunning session
1115 - Scales and arpegios
1130 - Going thru SYF score
Hmm... that's all until 1pm ba. Haha... see first la...
The tunning session, I have to go thru. As they had been learning cello for 6 months, they shld by now know how to tune their own cello. Or else...
I know for the pass few weeks, they have not been practicing scales and arpegios. So tomorrow gonna tell 'em how impt it's.
Hmm, the SYF piece, wasn't really a problem except for a few of 'em and a few higer positions notes... so... gotta go thru a bit.
After they left, perhaps gonna practice with Jo's for a while. Cuz did't practice much the double notes. So... but the duration can't be too long as I might be having sth on tml. Haix... oh ya, gotta try to pass Elgin's the scores that he requested. Sigh... not sure whether can I make it or not... sianx...
Hmm, still nt tired yet... perhaps do the colour editing of my template ba... =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:09
23 June 2004
What a sad day of mine
Sigh, so sad, really feels like crying. Damn feels like crying. Just realise that my friend, Shirley had did well in her exam. Below are her results.
EFC - B
OFC - B (Same as her)
OFO - A
EBK - A (Same as her)
GPA - 3.5
Well, only 2 subjects different grades with her but how come our GPA has so much different? I just simply can't understand it. Sigh. Well, I'm not jealour nor feeling envious of her. I'm just hating myself for all careless mistakes that I had made. Well, what's all the hatred now? "Always learn from your mistakes and don't commit it again, and I believe you can success one fine day." "Don't aim for too high, as you might get disappointed once it doesn't matches your goals" Haix... gotta remember these two phrases. Hmm, can't remember who told me about it but it's still being remember in my heart.
Well, it's a promise to Shirley I'll not feels jealous of her or envy about her results. Sometimes, can't deny I don't feels envious of her lor. But for sure, I'll not jealous of her. Cuz each an everyone of us has our own potentials, strenghts and weaknesses... so what's the point of jealousy?
Today afternoon, supposely all juniors 'll be having combine practice but not too sure the reason of cancelling the practice. Well, also good. Cuz today might not be free in the afternoon. So...
Tml, think wont' be able to catch the concert le. Haix, as I'm going to visit my brother. If I'm not going to go this time, guess I have to wait till November holiday le. Haix... it had been about 8 months I didn't saw him le. So a little miss him... hehe... wondering how he looks like now.
Friday 'll be having a self-practice with juniors. The time wise, haven't fix. Haix, perhaps, might have something on in the late afternoon so think might not be able to pass Elgin's the score le. Well, shld I ask Jo's to help me? Hmm, not too sure yet. Sigh...
I was like hating Vedelene so much. She is just simply too rude le. I was chatting with my friends and went off to the ladies for a while than after coming back realise that one of the chat box is gone and another person was told that I have to go. Don't you think that she's rude enough? Really feels like giving her a tight slap on her face. Not the first time liao ley. All I can say is never ever treat her nicely as she'll take granted of it!
Update
Bored I'm so bored. Vedelene wasn't here tonight, went back to her dad house. Guess gotta wait till tml than I can see her le. Haix, recently mom was sleeping pretty early. Therefore, no ones I can chat to. Haix, wanting to play the sims, but it seems like there is an error in it. Sigh, Carol haven't pass me the game yet. Life at home is damn bored man! Haix... poor thing... sianx... not sleepy yet... wondering what should I do now?
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:20
22 June 2004
What a selfish guy he's
Sigh, also not sure what's the matter with my mom. Whenever she came in the room to do some clean up etc, she'll more or else make some noise. And that for sure 'll wake me up man! Luckily just that yesterday I sleep pretty early so manage to wake up now. But sigh, later on for sure 'll be taking nap and tonight gonna suffer again le. Sigh, what to do?
Wake up so early nothing to do now, so just now went to write testimonials for friends. A, after writing nothing to do so came over here to update my journal regarding yesterday matters.
Yesterday afternoon was like wanting to practice cello. Yes I did practice but the duration is far gone beneath the expected duration by him. Sigh, just hope that I can practice 4 hours tomorrow. Possible? Let's watch. Haha...
Sigh, recently the weather is so hot that everyone of us at home just simply can't stand without the air-con.
That stupid jerk was complaining about the degree of the air-con yesterday in a damn rude manner. I was like hating him so much when he starts complaining this and that. But I was kind enough to help him to adjust the degree yet he's showing me that kind of attitude! Argue lose to me than turns the whole fan to himself =( Oh no, that's ridiculous man! Sigh, just simply can't stand him. All I can do is to pray that he gets into army soon. =P
Pearlyn's getting more and more clever le, each time she saw her dad or grandpa came back home from work, she'll address "Ah Pa!" or "Ah Gong!". Haha, but seldom call "Ah ma, Ma ma and Ah Yi." Of course I didn't heard her calling "Ah Gu"
Update
Haix, wanna eat my lunch also cannot. Pearlyn's sicking me so close. Haix, the rice almost drop on the fall as my mom put a plastice bag below it and just happen that Pearlyn's pulling it without my notice. Because of that, my mom scolded me. Hey, is it my fault or not? Scold scold scold. All you know is to scold only la! Fuck, don't wanna eat le! Mind u, me not going to eat anything tonight! =(
My resutls are you aware of? No! Most of the time I only share with sis that's because it makes no different of whether did I tell you or not. Cuz you just simply can't be bother with. Same as my dad. What kind of parents are you ppl? No wonder I'm in such a stage now... haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
08:38
21 June 2004
Hoho, finally the results are out...
Wahaha, results out already, did quite badly. Sigh, but I'll work even harder for the next semester. Below are my results...
Thinking Skills - S (Unit Taken 2.0)
Per and Interper Effectiveness - S (Unit Taken 2.0)
Effectuve Communnication - C (Unit Taken 4.0)
Office Computing - B (Unit Taken 4.0)
Office Organisation - B (Unit Taken 5.0)
Book-Keeping - A (Unit Taken 3.0)
GPA - 2.938
Haix, what a lousy results! Especially Effective Communication. Rather shock to see a grade C in my results slip. Perhaps, I deserve it. Cuz our CA (Class Advisor) always call us to read Newspaper daily but I'm just simply too lazy to buy it and read it. Sigh, a little disappointed, well, what's the point to be disappointed? Just work harder the next time. Hmm, actually can do well in Office Computing but just lazy to check through everything before printing. Well, there's no point of regretting now, just hopes that I'll learn from the mistake that I had made. Office Organisation wise, expected to have grade B, but I believe I can do even better than this if I were to start my revision earlier. Hmm, doing well, next semester work harder. Book-keeping expected A myself and it turns out to be A too. Glad, hoping that I can keep it up.
GPA wise, more disappointed. Cuz I need a minimum of 3.2 then I'm able to make it to higher NITEC. Well, this is just mid-year, work harder in end-of-uear ba. Cheering myself on, JIA YOU!
I hope I'll luv myself more
12:09
20 June 2004
Lunch box went missing
Yesterday slept at 4am and woke up pretty early today. Finally slepy at 4am but was being woke up by the noise that my brother made at 6am, turning here and there, haix.
Today, can sense that Mr Lee wasn't quite satisfied with our performance for the same part again, the ornaments.
Bought some dumplings using the coupons. Wanting to wait for the lucky draw one, but gotta wait until 5pm before it starts. Therefore, went home after quite some time of waiting.
After coming back home, I than realise that my lunch box went missing. Haix, my second brother eaten it up. Is okay, but I don't like the comment he give lor (Eat already feel like vomitting!) FUCK! Don't eat la, even though mom ask you to eat you still have the right to choose not to eat want what. Haix, partly is because you're running out of money ma, ar bo, sure u'll not eat want.
Ate already means ate already, there's no point of scolding mom, jerk! I just don't wanna to quarrel with you only lor. Just remember can le. Everytime showing your attitude problem towards mom.
Since I was young till now, I had not seen one time that he bought us lunch/dinner. The most is that, he'll help us to buy dinner but took mom's money. Haix, but me leh? A few times le... haix... don't wanna comment much over here. Haix, a little hungry now. Mom say wanna go down buy for me but I don't want. I don't fancy it. U always like that one, always ask someone to eat away the lunch box on the table. No matter is me eats brother ones or brother eats mine one. I just simply hate you doing like this. Do you know how hungry I'm? Yet you don't even bother to call my hp to inform me that brother had eaten up my lunch box. Hates you, u spoiled my day...
Dad another person, I already told you in the morning that I'll eat it up when I come back. Why can't you inform mom's about it? Buying again for me later means is my dinner time le ley. Hates you!!!!!!!!!
Haix... feeling much more better after scolding the 3 #s@!%^#$%#@^$@#*@... haix... forget it... tonight me not going to eat my dinner too. I rather die than to see all you ppls! Esp you, jerk!
I hope I'll luv myself more
16:32
Happy?
Well, thing turns out to be ironic to me today morning as things weren't going accordingly to my plan that I had planned yesterday.
Sleep til pretty late today, 1130. Haix, just can't force myself to wake up even though I'm going to be late for the meeting that I have with Si Yao in the afternoon.
After shower, tidy up my bed neatly or else, mom gonna nag again when I'm back home. After which, saw the whole room was like very dirty like that, so took the broom from the store room and have a quick clean up. How I wish I can clean up the whole house, but can't as I'm going to be late le.
Funny thing happened. Both Si Yao and I were afraid of being late today for the meeting that we set at 1pm but both of us arrived at the same time and in fact, we're 5 mins earlier than the meeting time we setted yesteday.
Have a chat with her, and understand her a little bit. Haix, guess she has a lot of problems but just keeping everything inside her heart. Haix, no difference from me.
Have a chat with Mr. Ji too. Personal chat, haix, feeling a little guilty of "betraying him". Well, I didn't "betray him" but I was just like saying it to Su Qing's that he wants us to go over to JIFENG CO. I don't mean any other things else de, really! I was just merely comments that he can't control us as we have our own choice right? Anyway, felt a little remorseful lor... haix, hopes that they won't quarrel again lol...
Hard works indeed pay off. I have been practicing cello daily and today finally a better comments were given when playing the double notes. *Happy* But he did not listen to both No. 35 and 36. Haix, I had invested a lot of time in it de ley. But today, he didn't have much time to spend with us. So... should be nvm lor...
Have a little fun with juniors today during SP. Haha, super cute they all. Michell always blur, Eunice always looking sad, Pei Shan always has an unstable mood, Jasmine always quiet, cool, Li Juan always appear to be curious, and finally Percie always laughing non-stop. Haha... well gonna give comments to each person below:
Michell didn't practice much, deprove a lot. But I have confident in you, all needs more time to master.
Eunice improved a lot. Jiayou! But do clear up ur doubts K?
Pei Shan wise, u're doing well, is just that you start to become faster and faster once you're blur and nervous. Other than the unstedy tempo, the rest you're doing fine.
Jasmine, all needs more steady tempo and hopes that you'll have much more confident in yourself ba...
Li Juna, you're far gone beyong others le. Well, simply because you're too curious. Sth you're not require to know, you'll still wanna know. Haix, tot that you're the most quiet out of so many juniors that I have. But things turn out to be ironically. Haix, you're doing well, keep it up.
Percie a mad girl man! Haha, I should say she's much more cheerful ba. A girl who have showns great potential in playing cello and great leadership skills. So keep it up too. Haha...
If I was asked to recommend someone to be the leader within the 6 of you, I'll most probably rank in the format below:
Percie, Jasmine, Li Juan, Michell, Pei Shan and Eunice ba.
But for sure I'm not going to recommend sec 1 students. Cuz you gals still haven't had the experience yet. Perhaps, Jolene ba. Good attendance, good in playing cello but just pitigul that she's a little too quiet. But just hope that Mdm Peng will give her a chance to try. Haha...
Hmm, before meeting starts, have a chat with **. Haha, happy lol, cuz that's the way I want. Don't wanna you keep on avoiding me since last time matter. Just hope that we can be friends la. Haha...
Well, the meeting is damn bored man! Haix, no comments la... sigh, forgotten that tomorrow got CP... gotta slp after Elgin's log off. Haix... jialat...
A, tml the results 'll be out. Can launch it from the net. Haha... nervous...
Actually still have a lot more wanan say. But is about the day before de. I have a quarrel with brother. But don't wanna type le, tired liao. Perhaps, I should just let those unhappy things to be erased. Haha... k le... take care frenz...
*Sunday, 1am*
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:10
18 June 2004
Plans for tomorrow
Hmm, as usual today. Nothing special. Just that sis came over pretty early today and brother didn't went to work as he was in 2 days MC leave. Mom came back pretty late from work today compared to yesterday and the day before.
Didn't practice seriously today afternoon also don't know why. Perhaps, getting sick of all those pieces. Well, for sure I'm gonna practice for another week cuz I don't think that I have been playing the double notes excellently. Well, just hopes that tomorrow positive comments 'll be given to me.
Sigh, tomorrow gonna meet Si Yao at 1pm at BLCC. Hope that I can help her as much as possible within the hour. Maybe, accompanying her for dinner too. Guess gonna crack my brain tomorrow for all sort of solutions or ways to comfort her le ba.
Tomorrow gonna be a long and tough day for me le. Haix, gotta wake up pretty early to practice cello... hmm, below is the plan for tomorrow...
1030 - Wash Up
1045 - Cello practice
1145 - Shower
1215 - Prepared
1230- Get out of the house
1300- Should be sitting down chatting with Si Yao le ba...
1400 - SP start
1700 - Have a break, but for sure Si Yao is gonna look for me and start talking about her problems le ba.
1730 - BLCC meeting... Haix, that's what I'm afraid of. Wondering 'll Si Yao be chatting with me or not. Hope for certain time only but definetly not throughout the WHOLE meeting lol. Or else, doom!Guess the meeting 'll be until most probably 1900? Hopefully la... pls! *Praying... ... ... ... ar men!*
1900 - Gonna accompany Si Yao for dinner. But until what time leh? Hmm, give her until 2100 ba... haix... better until 2030. At least give me half an hour for travelling back home to catch my show at 2100. Can't wait watching it. So... guess thats gonna be my day for tomorrow le. *Miserable* Don't u thinks so? Haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:07
17 June 2004
Yeah! Finally got it le...
Today actually can wake up earlier de. In fact, I got up at 6am in the morning cuz yesterday slept at 9.30pm... so... but end up I went back to sleep cuz nothing to do so early in the morning ma. So...
But who knows that I'll sleep until 12pm like that. Than start my practice at 12.30pm until 2.45pm... haha... about 2hrs and 15mins? Haha... not so bad le wor... haha... a few more days to go before SP... =)
Mother was asking me accompany her to JP but I don't want as I'm too lazt to go out. I mean before I go out I need to shower etc... before I can get out of the house I need at least an hour to get myself prepared etc... so say no to her lor.
But than when sis came, she ask me to join 'em. Than after much thought just because of the sake of the Ocean Ou De Yang album, I go lor.
Have a great shop la... I mean my sister... haha... but me not so bad. Haix... now gotten one of my wish le... the album of Ocean Ou De Yang... more expensive than GPSC... but nvm... but who knows that I was being attracted to one bag, pretty cool! Wanna it. Mom say wanna buy for me, but I don't want. Haix... cuz whatever I want, I wanna use my own money to buy it. Cuz, I have already grown up, is time to be more sensible le. So... nvm... I believe when school reopen, I sure 'll have sufficient money to buy whatever I want de... so... just wait lor... a few more weeks to go... I'm patient enough to wait wor... :D
Hmm, not sure wanna say wad le. Perhaps, that's all for today ba. Update you tonight if there I'm bored. Hehe...
Update
Haix, See Yao was crying again now. Haix, how? How can I help her? Listen to her pros? I hope I can, but uncle is watching tv outside, plus, the phone of mine is damn soft, for sure I can't listen clearly to wad she gonna say. So... haix... *stressful* but nvm, she's my gd frenz. If she needs me to call, I call her, listen to her. Haix...
Hopes that my god-bro feels better after some sms(es) sent to him. Haha... take care la, frenz...
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:23
16 June 2004
Same old phrase, today woke up pretty early as I have planned yesterday. Glad that everything go accordingly to my plans.
Hmm, manage to practice together with Jo's for like 2hrs and 30mins? Happy, than just now also have a self-practice at 1610-1645. So happy lor, today today practice for 3hours again. Hope that I can continue for the rest of the days.
Jo, below are the comments for the 4 songs that u played today.
No. 34 - Ornaments occur as notes are not being played together. (Tips: Slant the bow more to A string)
No. 35 - Quicker tempo is essential and intonation needs to be precise.
No. 36 - Doing well so far, but quicker tempo is essential.
No. 37 - So far so good, needs to practice more to achieve fluency...
Haha... so u own me 4 comments arr...
Hmm, wanting to get Ocean Ou De Yang album but didn't manage to get it. Also don't noe why it haven't published yet. Haix... 5 more days to go and results will be released. *... ... ... Ar men!*
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:24
15 June 2004
Where have it gone to?
Today woke up pretty late, 12pm. Have a shower after waking up from bed and done a little housework. Finally manage to settle down by 2.10pm to start practicing cello. Not so bad, manage to practice for 2hours and 30minutes. That's the duration expected from him. Hoping that I can keep it up for the rest of the days.
6 more days, results will be released. Getting more and more nervous. I sincerely do hopes that I can have at least 2 "A"s, and 2 "B"s... really have to pray harder le.
Hmm, I was hunting for The Sims Deluxe Edition that Carol had lent it to me long ago. But it seems to be disappear as I can't find it in my room. It's impossible to be at some other places too. Coz I don't remember I bring it out of the room before. Haix, perhaps, later gotta hunt for it again, cuz I was wanting to return it to her tomorrow when she brings me a new game. So...
Think I stop down and update you guys tonight if possible. Take care friends... ~~
Update
Hmm, today actually promised Jo's that I'll be practicing cello with her but I overslept so change to tomorrow. I have been wondering what time should I ask her to come even though I had called her to come at 11am tomorrow. I was like wanting to change the time as I'm afraid that it's too early for me. Hmm, I have a plan below, take a look...
0915 - Shower
0945 - Gets everything prepared (Switch on e air-con, open the stand, arrange the chairs etc)
1000 - Warm up (I mean I start my practice at 1000, it's too early man! Scare that I'll distrub my neighbour therefore I'll gets the air-con switched on)
1100 - Start our practice until 1400
Haix, guess tomorrow I'll be practicing for 4 hours! Wow... that 'll be great. But most probably, I'll be just sitting down there guiding her ba. Haha... oh no, hopes things don't turns out to be ironical...
Hmm, wanting to get Ocaen Ou De Yang album tomorrow. Today hinting my mom to give me money but she didn't. Haix, me also not bear to take her money to buy CD. I mean other than school accessories etc, I won't take her money to buy things that I wants lor.
Finally manage to find The Sims Deluxe Edition le. But sigh, the Sims disk 1 cannot be loaded wondering why. So sad. Nvm, tomorrow think Carol 'll be passing me another game, also about the same as The Sims, but I don't think it 'll be as fun as Sims ba. Sianz, brother was asking me to ask mom to get me a laptop but I don't think I can get it now. Perhaps, later time ba, when my mom strike $10, 000 4D, guess is hard for her le worx...
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:12
14 June 2004
Practice harder le, Jia You
Wake up pretty early today morning. Hmm, hope that tonight can sleep early liao. Haix... I don't think I'll be going to Westmall later le. Cuz heard from my friends that I need to pay for the registration fee of $30+... haix, I don't think I have so much money lor.
Actually plan to practice cello at 9am, but I came online just to do some research. Hmm, guess better stop now and shut down or else. Die... hmm, before I forget gotta sms Jolene to inform her about it.
Hmm, finally manage to practice 3hrs of cello le. Haix, no.37 was too difficult for me le. Only manage to play first two sentenaces within half an hour. Shit... tml gotta concentrate more on that piece le. Or else, someone 'll be thinking that I didn't practice at all. Jiayou...
The weather in the afternoon was pretty windy. Loves it. Haix, now don't know wanna do what. Sianz... perhaps, play computer game ba. Hmm... that's all for now. Update tonight.
Update
Haix, today evening I was installing a game, a pretty old game, the sims. Can't help cuz staying at home nothing to do so just hope to install some game to play. But who knows what's wrong with the game keep on installing fail. Haix... QI SI WO LE...
Guess that spoiled my mood and results in bad-tempered. Pearlyn was crying when she woke up but her mom didn't know about it. Haix, had a fight with her mom again. Shit...
Just woke up not long ago. Hoping that later will be able to sleep. Hmm, heard from my frenz that results will be announced on 21 June. Haha... nervous... 7 more days to go. Hoping that it will be good. Summary again...
EFC(Business English) aiming for an "A" (80 and abv) but due to the difficulties of the paper think should be getting a "B" ba.
OFO (Office Organisation) aiming for an "A" (80 and abv) think it's not a problem to me ba... *Praying*
OFC (Office Computing) aiming for an "A" (80 and abv) but think not so easy... a little risky. Missed a paragraph, one word was typed wrongly. So most probably getting a "B" ba... haix... hope that miracle will appear...
EBK (Book-keeping, sort of POA) aiming for an "A" (80 and abv)... haha... guess should be no problem to me ba... wish me good luck wor... haha... ;p
Summary ended... haix... guess that's all for today...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:23
13 June 2004
Yesterday slept quite late because I took a nap in the evening. Finally manage to sleep at 2am but I was being woke up at 3.30am by my brother. He was having a quarrel with his girlfriend until 5am over the phone. Finally, a peace of world after they hung up the phone.
I can sense that my brother truly love his current gf deeply. So deep that he can cried for her sometime. But somehow, his gf was going beyong his limit that he can't tolerate her attitude problem that makes him feel like saying break to her.
Each time, they quarrel, it reminds me of my ex. I can say is a pretty short rela, but it's pretty sweet too. The time we were together, we never ever quarrel of any thing. We were just like giving in to each an other and that makes the rela last long. But I can't really rem e reason of breaking up. Haix...
Today morning, when I saw my hp time, it's already half an hour late. But my head was feeling so pain that I can't even sit on my bed but to go back and have a sleep. After a while, my nose was sneezing terribly that I feel extremely exhausted. When I was feeling slightly okay, I went back to sleep until 3pm. I feels much more better after waking up.
Wanting to practice cello but there seems like no spare room that I can use. Therefore, came online to do some surfing etc...
Guess that's about all for now. Perhaps, updating again tonight.
Update
Just manage to practice cello for 90mins. Haha... but just no.36... haha... hope that good comment can be given for this piece. Tml wanna concentrate on double notes pieces le. Ar bo sure won't be able to pass. Haix... that's all for today.
I hope I'll luv myself more
16:15
12 June 2004
Moody
Today morning was feeling a little sick and tiring yet still have to see his face. Haix, also don't know what's the matter with him.
Didn't practice much during practice time. Thinking of practicing again after reaching home but didn't as I'm too lazy to take out the cello out of e bag.
Ya, finally saw Xiao Wu le... haha, his skills of playing double bass is damn good man! SN, jiayou le!
Btw, I don't like u to ask me he's handsome or not lor... haix... heart break man!
Writing letters to two of my old friends... can say sisters too... just now. Haix, we have not been keeping in contact for a long time le, wondering 'll they still remember me?
Dad just asked me as if that he's scolding me. Because he sound damn strict that I can't wait telling him that it's not me!
All because of that stupid jerk. Feeling tired also don't know how to shut down the PC first before going to sleep. Aaaarrrggh, hates him so much.
Haix, all I can say is that he'll never feel lucky of having me as his sister de lol... *Sob*
Later still gotta report to Lick Suan about the att of e general mtg... haix... sianx... haven't sms SN yet. Perhaps, later ba.
Yao yao, my gd frenz, seems like have something troubling her. Haix... hope that she gonna be fine. AI QIN BU SHI NI XIANG XIANG ZHONG DE NA MEN RONG YI. So... don't be too upset. Cheer up, frenz!
Update
Haix, today afternoon after coming back from sectional practice, my nose was bleeding. Haix, guess I have not been drinking enough H20.
I was hating my mom for asking me to give in to my dad today evening. Why must I give in to him when I was commenting the dinner that she have cooked. What's that concerning my dad? Beside, I don't mean to hate her but she's gone beyond my limit. Sigh...
Sth sad wanna to share with you guys. Xuan Wei didn't manage to get into the semi-final for the BU WEI ZHI YE. Haix... pitiful lor. Cuz he play still quite good ley. Haix... also don't know what's wrong with the judges.
New homework for next sectional practice are 4 pieces of the exercise book. 2 pieces involving double notes guess gonna suffered again le. Hoping that better comments will be given to encourage me to practise harder during the next sectional practice. *Praying*
Hopes that tomorrow CP we can produce better results. Oh no, if I'm not wrong, tml there will be a checking of instruments in the afternoon ley. Oh no, don't tell me that I needs to bring the cello back to cc tomorrow morning. OMG!
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:23
11 June 2004
A entry full of haix...
I would like to start my diary for this entry on 9 June. Because I don't think that I have been typing my diary seriously on that day onward due to the present of my cousin.
My cousin came from JB to S'pore with her aunty (father sister) without anyone else. It's her first time coming to S'pore without her mom. She can remember last time when we want to bring her along when coming out to S'pore she'll cry as she wants her mom to tag along too. Haix... now, she have been 14 years old, times indeed files fast.
If I'm not wrong, she have been staying in my house for 3days 2 nights ba. She wish she could stay longer but she can't as her lesson starts this coming Monday. Haix...
The first day of her visit, I bring her to IMM to have a great shop. Letting her see the differences between Giant in JB and S'pore. After which, we took a bus home and she complaints that the journey is damn long. Quite true but I have already used to it le.
The second day, I bring her to have lunch at GPSC. I was planning that we will be having lunch together with my mom but end up didn't as we overslept. Haix... after which, I went to JP to help my dad to do something but there isn't any M1 shop there, so went for a shop with my cousin. I saw a shirt in Ice Lemon Tea, pretty nice, but cost me $26.90... so expensive and a skirt in This Fashion... can't remember how much it cost. Haix... how I wish I can buy one shirt for my cousin. But sigh, I spent too much on the day before le... haix...
In the afternoon, she went to visit my brother with my sis. I was wanting to go along too but the headache's killing me. Haix... end up didn't go.
Today was a damn bored day at home. Her aunt told her that she'll be picking her today morning but who knows that her uncle came at 7pm+... if I were to know that earlier, I'll bring her out again. But think 'll be Jurong Point again. Haix, I'm such a failure, I mean I should bring her to Escape, downtown east or perhaps, east coast park? Haix... too bad... who ask her to have me as a cousin and who ask me don't have money. Haix... ke lian...
She wish she could stay longer but she can't as her lessons starts on this coming Monday. Haix...
Because of her present, I have not been practicing cello for a long time. Haix, tomorrow practice have been change to morning, 10am. Hope that I'll be able to sleep early tonight if not tomorrow guess I'm not able to wake up on time le. Haix...
Going to have dinner now and later 'll be practicing cello. Haix, head gonna crack again as I'm going to wonder for a long time just for a miserable place to practice. Haix... sianz...
Guess, is more than enough, I shall stop typing le. Haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:33
Haix, yesterday sleep at 4am and woke up pretty early until the headache is killing me again! Haix... planning to have lunch with my cousin and mom but end up, my mom had already eaten her lunch. End up, only my cousin eating herself. Haix...
Today, plan to go and visit my brother but the headahce, haix... end up I didn't go. Heard from sis that he have his hair shaved. Pitiful...
Wishing to type out more over here, but don't really have the time to do so. Perhaps, I need to spend more time with my cousin ba... haix... she seems to have a lot of problems troubling her and keeping all inside her heart. Frankly speaking, she's the most sensible cousin that I have... haix...
Updating u guys tomorrow morning...
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:54
10 June 2004
The headache is killing me!
Sigh, yesterday didn't manage to sleep early again. I was lying on the bed at 1am and waited for the two miserable hours to past than I manage to sleep.
Woke up and went to the ladies at about 9+... haix, the headache is killing me. I wish I can wake up early so that I 'll be able to sleep early tonight. But I went back to sleep again until 1030 I forced myself to wake up even though the headache is still killing me. Haix... luckily, now feel much better le...
Hmm, perhaps, 'll be online for a while, later gonna practice cello. Afraid that Mr. Ji 'll change the schedule to tomorrow. Haix... still haven't manage to master out quicker tempo. Haix...
My cousin from JB came to my house this evening and I bring her to IMM until damn late. Haix, that's y, when Jo sms me, I didn't reply as I forgotten to bring my hp out. Sorry!
A little sad that she's going off tomorrow evening. Haix... I have a lot of fun with her around ley. Haix, sad la... *Sob*... haix... long time come to my house for only one day. Haix...
Guess that's about all.
I hope I'll luv myself more
03:37
08 June 2004
You're an ISTP
You're a realist who applies expediency and reasoning as you manage and adapt to situations...you are aware of what is going on in the environment and are able to respond quickly to the actual facts, making sure the odds are in your favor...
You're straight-forward, pragmatic, honest people who prefer action to conversation..you have a good understanding of the way things work, and are not pretentious...analytical...you tend to make logical and private decisions, stating things the way you see 'em...
don't like to be tied down and don't like working in a structure or schedule...you need to anticipate immediate practical needs in situations and to present a logical straightforward plan for meeting those needs...
Curious and observant... convinced only by hard, reliable facts...veritable storehouses of information...realist able to capitalize well on available resources... quiet and reserved...appear cool and aloof and are inclined toward shyness, except with good friends...
You operate on impulse....you learn best when you can observe first-hand in a one-on-one situation...prefer to learn alone...you thrive on excitement and action...probably like outdoors and sports....good trouble shooter...you lead through action...by setting an example...you'd prefer to managed loosely at work so bossman isn't breathing down your neck.
It's important to pursue your interests.. you will do what it takes to make time or money for your leisure-time pursuits (like pay for a Storm Palace subscription?) ....you like to have the latest and finest equipment for whatever your hobby is...you probably get turned on just reading the Trivial Pursuit cards just to learn the information....
Love? Responsive yet realistic, huh? You seek partners who'll give you your freedom (especially for hobbies and interests) or will at least participate in 'em with you....you're attentive to the little things that your partner will like..you like to surprise them with gifts and stuff... you'd rather show your feelings through actions than express them with words....
When scorned by a love, you don't share it with the world... you're usually not vindictive when the relationship is over...you don't give up easily on the relationship unless you're convinced by the evidence.
Things to be careful about: difficult to share your reactions...look for the shortcut or the easy way...slack off occassionally....develop a step- by-step plan...don't keep important things to yourself...you might take in so much information that you feel overwhelmed by it...you may be hesitant to make decisions....this makes you appear undirected...don't move on to new tasks before your other ones bear fruit...
ISTP: "I See The Problem"
Take it @ http://haleonline.com/psychtest/
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:51
Oh My God!
OMG! I slept until 2pm man! Shit cannot like that la... ar bo tonight sure gonna suffer from insomnia again!
Haix, today mom at home doing all the housework but did't cook lunch for me. Sigh, can't really blame her cuz she's aching all over her body cum she's still sick haven't recover yet. Haix, poor mom!
I hates holiday so much! Firstly, I'm damn bored staying at home. Wanting to look for a part-time job but it seems like there isn't any vacancy left. *Sob* Secondly, dad didn't give me allowance and left only $1.20 in his drawer. What am I going to buy for lunch using $1.20? Haix, poor me... Not even have enough money to eat so for sure can't go out to any party, chatlet organised by my c'mates le... haix... damn ke lian. Everyday staying at home editing my template, surfing net, practicing cello and watch "Man at Forty" during weekdays at 9pm.
Mention of that, it's indeed a nice show worth to be watched. Each an every episode is so amusing that I can't help laughing at it. But yesterday one was a little sad that I cried and laughed when mush-room head saw her daughter, Xiao Ai teaching in a tuition centre. Haix, so touching. Guess today's one 'll be more exciting as Shao Qi's came back to look for mush-room head. Haha... muz watch wor!
Hmm, finally finish most part of editing le. Left a little more to go. Haix...
Guess that's all for now. Perhaps, updating u guys tonight. Take care
I hope I'll luv myself more
14:35
Haix, thinking that I was happy just now as Mom just came back from M'sia. Thought that she'll be staying another night over there. Hmm, finally my elder bro reply to my letter le. As usally asking me how was I doing nowadays. Guess tml gonna reply back to his letter.
Someone have spoiled my days just because of another person. All comments, suggestions given to him he's always unsatisfied with it. Also don't know what's the matter with him. Promising me that he'll change. But so far, what have he shows to me? Nothing! Thinking that he's selfless, thoughtful for friends, but overall, to me, he's just being selfish. ****, he have totally spoiled my day!
Saying that his mom was shouting that no ones concern about her. Therefore, I suggested that he approach his mom, ask her what happened, needs any help? Lending his learning ears to his mom. But all he replies are "I don't know, I can't help, I'm just useless esp when I'M SLEEPY" what a **** respone I gets from him. E respone disappointed me damn much, hurts me a lot that it can't be heal. Did he knows about that? I doubt so!!!
Hoping that his mom and he'll be alright after a good rest. And of course, myself too. So that I can continue to edit my page. Haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
04:14
Wa Kao, the computer of mine is frightening the third times. Also don't know what's wrong with it that I can't launch the internet even though I have connected. Haix... luckily nothing gone wrong or else I'm going to get scolding from mom le.
Hmm, if next time, it happens anything, I'm gonna ask my mom to get a new one for me. I mean it's a waste to spend lots of money for repair yet the problem occurs again and again. Haix... perhaps, a laptop 'll be great as I have been wanting for it a long time. But just that I don't really bear to use her money... that's all.
Hmm, guess that's all for now. Updating u gals n guys tonight. Going to make some editing to my template again. Hoho~~
Haix, feeling that I'm so useless. Planning to change my template a little but end up from 11am until 5pm... I have done nothing to it as it's being mess up by me. Haix... now, Jo's helping me out of it. Hopefully it works...
Perhaps, coming back online tonight... haix... gotta wait until dad slp or else... die...
I hope I'll luv myself more
04:13
07 June 2004
I was sleeping sweetly while the phone rang and woke me up from my dream. It was raining heavily early in e morning that all my clothes outside are getting wet. I get so frustrated when I was hurrying to keep all the clothes into the house. But all clothes were wet. Sigh... I should have kept it yesterday night but I have totally forgotten about it.
After keeping all the clothes, I went to take a shower as later on I'll be going to CP at 1030. After coming out from the bathroom, the rain had stop therefore I bring the clothes out again. Haix, praying that it won't rains until I come back from CP.
During CP, Jia Yan finally come back le. We have not been practicing together with Yang Qing for a long time and he didn't forget anything about NANYANG FENG QING... still manage to follow throughout the whole practice morning. Our performance wise, wasn't quite good. Haix, feel like I'm a big stupid girl. Simple ornament and rhythm also don't know how to play. Sigh, such a big failure I'm. After practice, Mr Lee (Conductor) was watching us (Jo's n I) practicing the exercises and I stopped and took a glance at him, he smiled back. Haix... my heart is being wetted up with my tears...
Bus journey was pretty short and I was lucky enough that it didn't rain. Couldn't have a rest after reaching home but to finish up all the housework as I'm afraid that mom 'll be coming back to S'pore this evening together with dad. But most probably she won't as she'll be happy to stay over there another night with jie. But I did tidy up the whole house as I'm afraid of dad too.
Sweating all over, and I felt so warm that I took a cold shower and feel much relax after the shower. Wish to surf net but I told myself I can't cuz dad is scolding mom for high utilities bill for last month. So, gotta control myself a bit. Perhaps, for a while... just like now.
Hmm, finish adding what I have planned to add earlier on le. Hmm, look so pinkish on the bottom right hand side. Guess gotta do something about it tomorrow. Haix, guess better get going before the com burst...
I hope I'll luv myself more
14:31
06 June 2004
Finally, I have finish editing the template colours and getting rid of unwanted stuff in my page le. All thnx to the help of Jasmine and Jolene. Haix... two great helper. Thanks arr...
Now or perhaps, tml, going to add their name (Jasmine, Jolene and Yin Luan) name under greatest creditors le. Cuz I planned to do so long ago as they indeed helped me a lot.
Haix, just now gone mad with Elgin's in msn. Not sure what happened to both of us just now. Haix...
Hmm, tml BLCC 'll have CP... for sure 'll be late as now is already 2340... some more, still feels energetic... jialat... haix...
I hope I'll luv myself more
14:41
Hmm, today was being woke by brother and his gf but nvm cuz nt very early. Brother was asking me wanting to eat KFC or not cuz he's going out to buy. I was thinking that 'll it be too early (11am) to have my lunch? But if I don't ask him to buy, what if later I gets hungry? Therefore, after thoughts, decided to ask him to buy my share too.
After finishing eating the Zinger, jie came le. She help out in eating the cheese fries whereby the coke was being shared by kor n his gf.
Nothing to do le, so decided to watch "The Sound Of Music". When I was watching the front part of the third disc, Su Qing phoned my house and asked me to help out in the Lakeside Primary School CO. Haix... saying that he'll come n fetch me in 10 to 15 mins time. Therefore, I took a quick shower and went down to meet him.
I reach there and the kids are also there le. Therefore, I started my lesson with double bass. After wic, I saw DA RUAN students were sitting down chatting n chatting non-stop therefore I went to do a spot check. Luckily I have done a spot check or else they 'll be learning nothing today. I asked them for the fingering on DA RUAN and they showed me. So I look at the score and find the notes. After finding, I teach em a few bars.
Getting tired of teaching them, I went to XIAO RUAN. The two kids are so cute. Lee Si Jia and Hao Tian. Very cute. I like Hao Tian more. Cuz she's more sensible than Si Jia. Both from China. China kids indeed clever. Haha...
After which went to percussion. The boy was so quiet sitting down there alone. But was cute too and a fast-learner. Good dan...
Hmm, today teach a number of instruments arr, stress. Cuz I only know how to play cello but just happend that the cello student wasn't here today. Heard from others that she have quit CO. Haix... such a waste.
Lesson end at about 1645 and I took a cab home. Wondering 'll I get pay for my lesson teach today? Cuz that time I get $60 for just teaching 3 hours over there. Some more, is just one instrument. Haix... wonder wonder...
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:08
05 June 2004
Haix, today after added Angela into MSN than have a chat with her. Realise that she's not the Angela that I really admire. Haix, she shared some comments but for sure not her problem. Her character is quite like my god-brother, Elgin's. Always keep their problems to themself. Haix, like that what's e point of having friend? Right?
Have a chat with Jasmine Cheah too. She's such a nice person that I don't know how to describe. Hehe... she helped out my blogger and Jo's too. She helped me to create html code... thnx to these two great helpers...
Hmm, life is really damn bored when it came to holiday. Nothing to do at home. Haix, at first, in the afternoon, my cousin mother from JB phoned and say her daughter is coming to my house. But not really sure of the reason why she decided not to come in the last min le *SOB*. Also good because me currently no money so for sure gonna stay at home and she gonna be bored too.
Have a practice of some exercises that were given by Mr. Ji... erm, slight improvement. Good. Wanting to edit my blogger e template one... my brother lol... now than give me play... not in the mood to edit le... so late le... haix, tml his gf is coming, than for sure 'll be staying in the room. So... me for sure is gonna stuck in e master room. Haix... sianx... luckily jie decided not to go back le... at least she's coming to mom house in the afternoon ba... hoping lol...
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:59
Yesterday morning woke up watch tv le dan practice cello. After which about 1245 went to take a shower and get prepared before going for SP.
Weather was pretty windy but there isn't any 99 therefore I decided to take cab after 20 mins of waiting. But there isn't any cab too. After about 15 mins standing under the sun and it finally came one.
When I reach there, Mr Ji was in a foul mood. Scare me. He asked Jo n me to practice 3 scales and we did. After practicing, he go through with us. Everything seems pretty smoothly.
After listening to e 3 scales, he called us to prepare one exercise for him to listen and we decided to play No. 28... the rhythms are just like Masuri (XIANG YI)... and he was quite please with our performance yesterday. All he request for scales is accuracy and exercises will be quicker tempo. He given us a double bass score, the name of the title is SERENADE... a very nice relaxing piece. We were asked to play in sight reading format infront of a few gd frenz of mine. And I get so scare as the fingering of double bass and cello is different. So some how will get confuse by it and play wrongly. Guess next time I saw SN, gotta borrow that book from him.
Hmm, the time files a little slow but guess is alright when Mr. Ji was quite please with us for the overall. Glad...
Stay there about until 6pm, 4 hours... than my hands cannot take it any more so decided to go home. After reaching home, my mom was telling me to go and buy dinner for the family. I did't. She was telling me that she's sick and I can tell that she's terrible sick. Wondering will she be okay today. Sigh, she rather use the leave to go back to M'sia than using it to rest at home. Mention of M'sia, she's going back on this Saturday morning with my dad. Haix... left me alone at home. Actually she asked me to go too, but I don't want. Go back to M'sia always stay at the kampong... nv go out. Ask me go out also don't have money. Haix...
Dad seems to own a lot of people money. Haix... also don't know how to help him out when I don't even have saving in my back account. Sigh... what a failure I'm...
Angela indeed have something troubling her, sigh, wish to help her out but not sure how can I help her when she didn't even share with me e problem. Haix... just pray hard that her results will be good.
Woke up late today, therefore missed my show... shit...
I hope I'll luv myself more
03:31
03 June 2004
Hmm, just woke up not long ago, thinking of practicing cello. But dad was switching the radio so loud and I don't have any room to practice too. Sigh...
Today is Pearlyn's birthday, 1 year old le, must be more sensible ar. Hmm, Happy Birthday wor.
In the afternoon, Zhi Yu's they all are helping Joan to celebrate her birthday which fall in the 4th June. I couldn't manage to go as I'm having a great stomach cramp.
Haix, my house have one BITCH. Doing those stuff when I'm sleeping. I mean she have the right to betray herself but please do respect me. When I'm in the room, for my goodness sake, don't do that. It's a disgrace to your family. Sigh, my bro oso another one. All I can say is that nv 'll e 2 of em learn from the mistake that they had made last time. No money wanna learn others to make love. Shit!!! I hate you, what a bitch. Never keep your promise.
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Hmm, glad that I have a short practice in the afternoon. Guess tml morning gonna practice again. Hoping that I won't get scolded.
Sigh, just took a nap, from 6 to 9... horrible. I'm just like a piggy... always haf to slp for a minimum of 3 hours nap then will wake up. If not, die die call me also won't wake up de...
Not very sure how am I going to spend thru e whole nite. Writing testimonial for frenz? Yes, I'm writing. And I get so work up when testimonial cannot be send. Not very sure what's wrong with the friendster. But I'm patient enough to edit n edit till it had been sent to my frenz then can.
Hmm, guess that's about all for today journal.
Take care, girls n guys.
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:08
02 June 2004
Second journal for e day. Juz now in e evening, my house here have an accident. A driver happens to be a police too, drove damn fast tt it nearly knock down a kid. But luckily, he didn't. The boy was now sent to the hospital for check-up
W.I.T.C.H issue 6 is out. Just bought it. Sigh, guess it does not suit me much. Guess next issue I'm not going to get it le. It's so small like e normal comic size but for sure is much more thinner than e normal comic. Well, e thickness is just like reader digest but more thinner than that yet cost me $4.90... haix... but for sure I can say that it's well illustrated with lots of colours
Tml, Joan's bdae. Zhi Yu they all have planned to help her celebrate at Esplanade. Sigh, feel like joining em but dan cannot cuz e DA YI MA visited me... sigh... stomach cramp man!
Hate, the Mr. Ji so much. Think he very big like that. SU GA SU GA change the practice time. Think that everyone can make it like that. Me today dan finish exam, have not been praticing for over a week. Now only left 2 more days yet I have to practice all those 5 exercises in a damn fast tempo. Sure cannot play well and for sure he's going to nag again. If I know that he'll change it to Thursday, dan I don't cut my hair in S'pore le. Go back to M'sia n cut dan oso do rebonding. Luckily the new hair-style is still not that bad. Ar bo me sure GEN TA FAN LIAN...
Haix, thought that I have a lot of thing to write down here but never realise is just only a short bio haix
Hmm, I have been writing for online diary for about 6mths le, gd, hope that I can still continue writing it.
Going to help Jeline to find out how to put pic into blogger le...
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:47
Hmm, woke up long ago le. Early in e morning I have update a journal at blogger but not here because HI5 is upgrading network. So...
Thinking of practicing cello but there isn't any room for me to practice. Haix... How I wish I can stay in Bun... like that I'll have one master rm 4 dad n mom, one for my bro, one for myself, and another one take it as my study rm or practice rm. Like that very good wad. Plus another 2 bathrooms. Haix...
Hoping that dad 'll be going out later so that I can start practicing my exercises. If not, tml sure die de lor.
Hmm, keep you guys update tonight. Don't really feel like shutting down e PC yet. Take a look whether my dad still at home or not. If yes, then I play computer game instead of practicing le.
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Hmm, glad that I have a short practice in the afternoon. Guess tml morning gonna practice again. Hoping that I won't get scolded.
Sigh, just took a nap, from 6 to 9... horrible. I'm just like a piggy... always haf to slp for a minimum of 3 hours nap then will wake up. If not, die die call me also won't wake up de...
Not very sure how am I going to spend thru e whole nite. Writing testimonial for frenz? Yes, I'm writing. And I get so work up when testimonial cannot be send. Not very sure what's wrong with the friendster. But I'm patient enough to edit n edit till it had been sent to my frenz then can.
Hmm, guess that's about all for today journal.
Take care, girls n guys.
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:21
Wahaha 3 cheers for all OA n OB students. Hip hip, hurray! Hip hip, hurray! Hip hip, hurray! Yeah, finally exam finish le. Muhahaha, can do whatever I want.
Hmm, today went out pretty early to school afraid that I might be late and no extra time will be given. So... 10am out of house le.
I reach there at bout 1045, which is just nice to me. Check with my frenz in OA, asking em how to do Trial Bal n I did manage to get some ideas after listening to their explanation. When invigilator was giving out the question paper, I took a peek at all questions. Searching for 2 columns n Trial Bal. But there wasn't any of these. Happy lol... cuz only this two I don't know how to do. Hehe...
The exam paper I can say is quite easy. But hor, not very sure 'll I be penalise for doing the Final A/C at the back of the T A/C of Day Books. Haix, pray hard for me again wor.
Hmm, if I won't be penalise for that mistake, think I should be able to score an "A" for it. But sigh, it's not countable into mid-year results. Is it?
Haix, whatever, all I noe is that next time end of each day, whatever lecturer had taught during lesson time have to make notes immediately. Like that arr, you need not to make notes when examination comes, or progress test etc. Like that, when exam round the corner, you can just simply take out the notes that you have make earlier on to do for revision. It saves a lot of time if you did it this way.
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Yoz, went to have a hair cut. Nice. Haha... at first when I reach there, I was thinking that Jenny 'll help me cut but end up was a new comer. A little scare.
She kept on praying lots of water on my hair, also using a lot of clips to clip my hair here and there, like making me into a crown. Haha...
She has a very nice hair-style, but she looks like very DAO. Dan don't really like her. But cut till half way, she starts to tok to me. Asking me which ITE was I from. Haha... dan we have a chat lol.
The hair-style that she cuts for me was quite nice, I very statisfied with it. Hmm, she say that my FA WEI a little curve also very nice. Dan I kept quiet.
I was thinking of doing re-bonding because afraid that once my front hair cut short, it will be very curvy. But it turns out average. So don't think I want to do re-bonding le, ar bo hair 'll becum more dry n I also save a lot of money.
A... W.I.T.C.H issue 6 is on sale le. Haha... finally. Yeah...
I hope I'll luv myself more
05:43
01 June 2004
Hmm, second journal for today. E first one is more about events that happened yesterday so didn't continue with it.
Today I was late for OFO test. But luckily when I step into e exam venue, they just began not long ago.
Paper was quite easy for both MCQ n essay questions but for sure nt e forms as I didn't study at all!
Haix, just now was studying for BK. Doing revision for 2 columns. But Metta's say most probably won't be coming out n I think that way too, so might as well don't study for it. Pls pray hard for me that it won't come out.
Hmm, guess I come online just to update a journal entry ba. That's bout all. Sigh, holiday end one day later dan others.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:12
Hmm, it seems like I didn't update my journal for a long time already,
Yesterday, I went to IMM shopping centre to get Pearlyn a bloster and a pillow that cost me nearly $40+. After buying that, is already pretty late, therefore I went back home (thinking that they have went to the celebration venue".
But when I reach the house door-step, they were standing outside, about to set off. Not very sure what happen that me made me like going. Therefore, I took the 2nd cab with my uncle, bro n his gf.
I was thinking that when we reach there, there 'll be a lot of people. But I was wrong. There isn't any guests but my sis, mom were there to get the food n decoration done.
People start to come in at 7pm like that and there are a lot of kids that made the whole situation more merrier. Yeah!
I seems to get along well with the kids, happy lol.
After the whole celebration, we clean up the place n leave e place at about 9.45pm like that. Then when I reach home, got a headache. Sigh, so worry. Cuz OFO have not finish doing revision yet. Still got the theory part. EBK more worse, not even started.
Die die, going to study for OFO le...
I hope I'll luv myself more
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